bring me to life...
why issit that lady luck isnt with me.
i nvr worked so hard in my life. on my own.
i topped maths overall.
i got my first A in humanitites.
i scored better than 3/5 of the class for history. or maybe 2/3.
i got an MSG below 2.00 which i nvr achieved before.
i got all grade As which i nvr achieved before.
i got into top 10 which i rarely achieve.
i tied with kengliang, beat people like sean, jingjie and chunyat. (sorry if there was any offence)
i was freaking happy about my results, up till yesterday.
i just had the best trip to korea in my life.
i just had a freakin nice tabletennis training sessions, thrashing ppl and owning them.
i got an iTouch for getting good results.
its just 5 more days to my bdae.
why did i get 1.57? why only that 0.07?
why am i considered the same level as that of ppl who got MSG more than 3?
why is it that people with an msg lousier than me still get into CSE?
i guess this is just a part of my life where it goes down.
it always have been up up down up up up down down up up up up up and then finally down.
it doesnt feel right.
i guess the fact that a total of 4 classes of students are better than me academically will nvr change.
this is the first time my heart sank so deep.
many things have been troubling me.
class chalet. and especially thinkquest. and then now about this results.
i put in so much effort into thinkquest these few days. i have been searching for templates. i have been looking for html codes for drop down menus. i have gone to the library to borrow books. i have upgraded my membership that costed me some money so i could borrow videos from the library. i kept sending requests to use content from the books so that i wont need to worry about using them.
and what were they doing?
hopefully this will be the last time i feel so disappointed with everything, esp my results.
its actually weird that i could only think of blogging when i could do so much other stuff now. especially when i feel like this.
i promise i will work harder.
and i will try.
its time i should relax...
lady luck, why did you leave?
/Hopped!
8:34 PM
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